Pregnancy Episode

This may be a surprise to some of you, but not so much to others. Steven and I are having a baby in January. I'm about 11 weeks along and we had our first doctor's appointment last Tuesday. We got to hear the heartbeat and see the peanut moving around a little. I've felt really really good so far. I've gotten queasy occasionally but overall I really feel like I'm making up the whole thing. I was fully anticipating our doctor's appointment proceeding as such; "I'm sorry but there's not a baby in here!" It was indescribable to see the heart flickering on the screen and know this is real. It was a very "life is bigger than you are" kind of a moment.

Since my symptoms have been minimal when I do feel pregnant it's worth documenting. I had one of those moments last night. I'm not an extremely emotional person, I hate crying, but with the baby occasionally I'll tear up or loose it over something simple. The opposite happened to me last night. Steven and I stayed up till about 11:30 or so and as we were getting ready for bed I realized I had the giggles pretty bad. I started laughing about something, I don't even remember what, and I could not stop!!! My laughter became a mix of giggles and hysterical crying! Tears were running down my face, snot was running from my nose and I had more spit in my mouth than I knew what to do with. This whole time I'm in the bathroom while Steven almost passed out in bed just staring at his wife turning into a psycopath. I kept thinking about how ridiculous I must look and how akward I felt and that just made me laugh harder! I'm blaming this episode on the baby and my hormones because it makes me feel better about myself!